I used to be a doormat…

I used to be a doormat. I would let people fuck with me. Instead of standing up for myself, I would cry. Stripping has changed this. It has helped me demand more for myself. Showed me how to own my body. I no longer feel the need to have sex to “be nice” and “make people like me”. I don’t allow people to do things to me that make me uncomfortable and get away with it. I don’t allow people to make me feel guilty for not doing things their way and/or not letting them get their way. However, this has caused a huge problem in my relationship. At the beginning, I was still in a transitional phase of doormat to strong person. Now, I act like a “fucking bitch” when I tell him I don’t appreciate the way he’s talking to me or the fact that he’s criticizing every thing I do. I’ve learned to stand up for myself and I am shown ever day how absolutely unattractive some people find back bones. Between my life outside the club, and my life inside, I find many people don’t expect me to strike back when spoken down to, etc. And when I do, they get incredibly, unjustifiably insulted. Stop expecting people to behave how you want, and realize people have their own personalities, ways of doing things and lives. /endrant