I strapped on a corset and some stilettos, slicked back my hair and donned some red lipstick for the lady.

This is an instagram preview of what she shot.

The ABCs of boobs.

Before hair and makeup, making up the bed.

After makeup, still in hair.

My first feature, My Sister Celine just came out.  It was cool seeing press releases for it on AVN next to a huge blinking AEBN banner with a huge picture of me on it.  My life is very surreal right now if you know me and where I come from.  Which you can’t and don’t.  But this feels real, right?

You can read a write up of my movie by porn scholar Anna B. Volk here: http://darlinghouse.net/beta/annabvolk.

I also have a scene with Skin Diamond that came out today on AEBN for our movie Lesbian Masseuse.  You should definitely check that shiz out.

Like how to show off your body in the most flattering way while in the supine position.  How to become like a one woman John Stagliano film.

Also, how to get carpet burn on your knees.  How do butt tricks.

How to make people want to see your  natural tits.

That its always better to be listening to classic rock.

That people love hearing stories about your life.

That cute gets more tips than sexy.

And that garter belts and black lingerie remind men of “trannies.”

The most common compliment for me to get on cam is, “I love small tits!”

I wear a 36C/34D.  No one ever referred to my tits as small until I entered the adult industry.  No one ever paid me a ________ dollars a pop to take pictures of my pussy back then either, so I guess I can deal with it.

My mom always tells me, “Baby, love is some serious shit.”

My body is an endless source of pleasure and neurosis.

Someone will want one.

Valentine's Day Lingerie. We cammed in Dana's old place. I may or may not have rubbed myself all over everything and licked every surface in the bathroom.

This is my face. I DO HAVE ONE!!!!!

My weird camming outfit from the side.

Mon cul. That's French for "My Ass." See, I'm sophisticated and shit.

Dana is a gonzo icon and has been in over 140 movies.  She has a face like a doll and an insatiable appetite.  I like it when she turns me out.

The show will be on http://xpeeps.com and my second ever.

Come watch me get sexed super good by my Mistress.

Is there a Mike Patton marital aid yet?  I like that.  Marital AIDs.

http://youtu.be/zaUrzMeS4xg

Hold that contact.

Is that enough parenthetical?

Sometimes now he says, “You drink so much.  Maybe too much.”

What’s funny is that for that year when I was hooked on meth, he never once questioned me during my weekly trip to his liquor store to buy a bubbler to smoke my shit (that’s tweaker speak for crystal methamphetamine, a popular recreational drug of choice for women and queers) out of.  Never. Said. Shit.

The thing about being a blonde is, guys just want to fuck your ass.  When you’re a brunette, they want to eat your pussy THEN fuck your ass.

XOXO,

Sovvy

BRB!!!!

Life being what it is, I will BRB.  I have a lot of work to do launching my site and building out a cam studio.  I’m designing all my own banners, watemarks, and graphics.  In addition to editing and retouching all my own photosets.  That’s a lot of work:

I will return in a few weeks with many meditations of wisdom and a brand new site etc.

I am filming another feature for Nica Noelle this month with newcomer Jennifer Best.  I think she’s definitely Muse material, so you will probably being hearing much more about her from Girl Candy Films in the coming months.

^_~

I will however be taking a permanent hiatus from the various adult forums.  I think that those are places best left for the fans to talk to each other about what they love.  Those of you interested in engaging with me, I will be as available as ever here on my blog, through my new site, through my camming, and of course, through good old fashioned email.

mistress@darlinghouse.net

XOXO

Sovvy

Reserved, slender brunette Beth has just gotten engaged to nice guy Liam, and travels home with him on holiday to meet his family. But when the self-conscious bride-to-be meets her fiancee's sister Celine, she feels an instant connection to the hauntingly beautiful, intense young woman. As Beth's curiosity for her wild sister in law grows, Celine begins a game of psychological chess designed to upset Beth's fragile sexual identity. But does Celine's quest for pleasure mask a dark, disturbing secret? How much is Beth willing to risk to find out? Introducing new lesbian superstar Sovereign Syre in an unforgettable debut performance.

It’s my first box cover, even if it wasn’t my first movie to be released.  This will always be first to me.  I think the image is a little glamorous given the tone of the film, which was almost more of an independent movie than an adult feature.  It’s also funny to see myself in the glamour machine.

vs. real life:

I wish I could show you guys more of the stills from the feature.  Perhaps in time some galleries will appear where you can see some of the darker portraits that JM Darling took on set.

XOXO,

Sovvy.

A gallery of my lady Madame Rosebud and myself from last year.  Please enjoy.  Followed by a burlesque performance by my queen.

Photos by JM Darling

This is something I wrote two years ago.  It started as an answer to an email from a friend who was soliciting advice from people about what they’d learned so far in life.  I ended up writing this, and  turning it into an editorial piece for an online magazine I used to be an op/ed writer for.

I think it’s kind of fitting for the new year.

Things I’ve Learned About Other People

1. Most people hide their suffering better than you think, you pass dozens of people a day on the street without any idea how well they’re wearing their tragedies.

2. People’s names are the sweetest sounds they hear. You should make a point of being good at learning and using them.

3. People love to spread their misery around, but not as much as they enjoy being lifted out of it.

4. Being young is not in and of itself an achievement. Neither is being beautiful. But people often treat you as if they are.

5. For a lot of people, music is a reflection of who they are and their relationship to life. Remember that before insulting someone’s favorite band.

6. The Golden Age never existed. People are always trying to get back to a time when things were simpler and better. The world was a far more dangerous place fifty years ago, especially if you were black or a woman or gay or diagnosed with cancer.

7. Most people, whatever their choice of profession, feel like complete novices that are about to be found out as frauds and fakers.

8. Most people love quite helplessly, despite what they would have you believe.

9. Show me the most beautiful woman in the world, and I’ll show you a man who’s bored with taking her to bed. Show me the most devoted husband, and I’ll show you a woman who feels that he’s just not doing enough. A lot of people are never satisfied because…

10. Most people have no idea what they want out of life, let alone how to get it. Most others are still waiting for someone to give them permission.

11. Whatever it is about yourself that you’re trying to hide, it’s usually the first thing someone else notices about you.

12. You should call your mother and tell her you love her. Like most women who decide to marry and have children or help take care of a dying parent, she probably sacrificed a lot of her dreams to be there for you, and she wishes that you appreciated her more for it.

13. If you tell a man about your problems, he assumes you want some sort of help or advice. If you tell a woman about your problems, she assumes you simply want a shoulder to cry on. Women rarely want to be told what to do about a problem, and men rarely want to be coddled through a hard time.

14. Creative people thrive on feedback. You can never give them enough of it, and you will endear yourselves to them mightily if you do it frequently, thoughtfully, and honestly. They understand far better than most think, the value of time.

15. For most people religion is a social commitment more than a spiritual one.

16. A lot of people who consider themselves intelligent can’t properly label all the states on a map, or all the countries in Europe, let alone Africa or the Middle East. Most couldn’t list off the ten commandments, five pillars, or the amendments of the Constitution, and feel that politics are too complicated to bother with understanding, let alone talking about.

17. A lot of Christians have never, and will never, read the Bible. Most of them will conduct their lives exactly as they would if they’d never attended a single church service. It is nearly impossible to tell a Christian from an atheist by their actions alone. Both Christians and atheists will probably find the previous statement offensive.

18. For nearly every crazy idea, you can find a fully credentialed scientist who will back it up.

19. People are more frequently kind and compassionate than they are fooled by our manipulations or lies.

20. Life often works in reverse. People treat strangers more politely than their family or friends. People will ask a friend’s band to play their party for free, will call their best girlfriend to come over and cut their hair without a thought to payment, but would never dream of calling a mechanic they found in the phone book and asking them to donate their time and labor to fix a broken down car.

21. Everyone has done something they would be desperately embarrassed for anyone else to know about.

22. Never joke with a man about his sexual performance, and never joke with a woman about her appearance. No matter how much they make fun of these things in themselves, never, never do it for them. They may laugh along with you, but you’ve just driven a tiny needle into their brain.

23. Most women get married because they want to have a wedding, most men get married because they are ready to settle down with a woman for the rest of their lives. Women, statistically speaking are more likely to suffer clinical depression if married, and initiate upwards of 80% of all divorces citing irreconcilable differences. People expect a significant other to change their lives and make them happy without any conception of how this change will take place. Sort of like assuming a college degree is going to guarantee you security in life without ever thinking of how this can be practically possible. I call this the “If you build it, they will come” approach to romance and one out of every two times it ends in divorce.

24. Most people are worried they’re not having as much fun as they should be. This usually makes men cheat and women nag.

25. When you insult or offend someone, always admit it and apologize promptly, even if it wasn’t your intention or you had no idea. It is always better to be a penitent villain than to appear so socially inept as to not recognize when you’ve hurt the people around you. An evil genius is someone to bring to your side, a blundering fool is someone to keep as far away from you as possible.

This was in a way homage to William S. Burroughs and his famous “Words of Advice for Young People.”

Model: Sovereign Syre

Direction: JM Darling

Editing: Bob Lopez 5000

Of course, a gallery of stills:

The hat was lying around and Josh wanted to test out a new lighting set up.  He ended up just taking a bunch of candids of me topless.  Everything always ends in being topless.

These were taken at the end of May this year.  Enjoy.

We talked about various models he knew that I was familiar with.  The modeling world of nude/fetish/erotica is actually quite small.  The same girls traveling across the country meeting men with cameras and various obsessions paying us by the hour to reveal the most intimate parts of ourselves.

Collin said I had a perfect mouth, even though he wasn’t really into lips.  He’s the first photographer I let touch me during a shoot.  It’s part of his style to have a sort of POV feel, him touching your feet etc.  He also touched my lips though, and put his thumb in my mouth.  I knew it was probably one of the last independent shoots like that I would do…a month later I was in LA making my first adult movie.  I thought it was a nice way to finish that chapter of my life.

Those two years in NYC changed me more than any other thing I’ve done.  At some point I will have to sit down and collect all of those stories.

Portrait in Pigtails by Joshua Darling 2011

I’m new to porn.  I come from a world where photographers consider themselves “auteurs” and are (generally)  more comfortable using the word “erotica” than “pornography” when referring to their work, even if it involved me sticking my fingers in my snatch.

Still from Psychopathia.Sexualis by Joshua Darling St. Lucie River, 2009

I’m frequently coming up against my own pretensions when I find myself disheartened over images of me with my pussy spread for the world to see with no attention paid to the zit that no one bothered to stamp out on my ass or the stray hair that’s raised defiantly from the coif on my head.   Some part of me is insistent on what I would call the female gaze: I ultimately want something to look beautiful, no matter how intense it is.

Kenn Lichtenwalter: He said his was raised Catholic and though he couldn't imagine what his mother would think, he couldn't resist when he saw the light forming a nimbus around my head.

The divide is clearest to me now that I’m on various forums that cater to the porn connoisseur.  First off, I have to say that I don’t think that gaze is something necessarily determined by gender.   Director and “Queen of Romance Porn” Nica Noelle would say she doesn’t cater to men or women, but rather to a specific sensibility.  That may be true, but she seems to have more vocal female fans than what I see for directors of more “intense” or “explicit”  straight pornography.

I do agree with her though.  I make lesbian pornography.  I have found that for the most part, the type of men and women who consume this kind of pornography have very different tastes than those that consume straight porn.  This was clearest to me when on a thread dedicated to me on the Viv Thomas forum, the images that they participants were posting were all my art modeling soft core nudes from when I was working in Manhattan the last two years. People were very clear in their preferences:

“Beautiful photos. And exactly the type of softcore artistic nudes I prefer as opposed to the sex still shots I’d much rather see in moving form in a video.”

Self Portrait in White Panties.

The photos most likely to get attention on the “straight” forums and blogs tend to be the more explicit and glamorous Holly Randall photos.  Once more of my movies come out, I’m sure they’ll be the “pretty girls” from my scenes…

Holly Randall, January 2011

I can say I don’t really mind the more explicit stuff.  I just appreciate the editing that is done by a photographer that isn’t bogged down by a deadline and isn’t trying to feed in insatiable machine.  I think it has to do with perspective, people on lesbian boards, and women in adult in general tend to use the word erotica (Holly Randall and Skin Diamond are two women who come to mind, both describe themselves as “erotic photographer” and “erotic model” respectively) more than men do.

Daniel Vaughn, 2009

George Pitts once described porn to me as “Explicit sexual depictions without sufficient compassion for their subject.”  I tend to like it as a definition.  I think of porn and erotica as points on a circle, like masturbation and sex…they kind of beget and destroy each other, like the Ouroboros.  I think its like trying to debate what is more fundamental, the head or the tail.

Manhattan Rooftop, 2011

Some portraits of Cocette:

And now, for some choice Smoov-E:  These are videos of him performing his raps “live.”

Rollerskates:

“I see the truth inside your lies/so I hook the panties to the side.”

Clipboard Full of Game:

Smoov-E like Water

“I fucked your daughter/then I pops my collar.”

Mr. Biscuits

Alas, Smoov-E has moved on, transitioning into a rock musician…One Popular Guy.

Here is the box cover:

A fan posted some screengrabs of my scene with Dani Daniels!

From the actual set:

Now its time to drop the top.

As these things happen, things didn’t exactly go as they should have. The makeup artist went overboard and the result was pretty heavy handed. I showed up for the shoot and it was obvious that the makeup was going to be a problem. I spent a panicked 20 minutes in the bathroom trying to tone down the makeup and then went out and tried my best to act like everything was great. I knew that the shoot was going to be a dud though. That’s just kind of how those things go. I was new to modeling. I didn’t have a big wardrobe and I had even less confidence. It led to many awkward shoots and images. Like most independent models, I’d give my right arm to get rid of half the images that come up if you do an image search of me.

I came home at the end of the day dejected. JM Darling decided we should take advantage of the strange makeup and try to bust out a moody shoot. In about ten minutes we did a shoot with some Crystal Delights Toys that had come in that day. I’ve been something of a spokesmodel for Crystal D and they had sent us some product. These are still some of my favorite images to date. Also. I show some pink.

Enjoy, Sovereign’s no good very bad day:

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