I went to shoot with a photographer to be submitted to _________ Magazine. He told me to lose ten pounds and then he’d shoot me, because he needs me at my best. I’m doing it, I’ve already lost four pounds, but for the record, I don’t think me ten pounds lighter is me at my best. Sometimes you have to compromise to get what you want.
Good thing I’m never too fat to cam!
Monica Bellucci face.
Megan Fox face.
Gutted face.
What was funny was that he seemed to feel that I didn’t look like the pictures in my portfolio, because when I’d asked him to shoot me for submission to the magazine, he’d looked through my portfolio and wrote me back to say that yes, he would shoot me.
What is ironic, is that when I started modeling I was twenty pounds heavier than I am now. Holly Randall shot me when I was ten pounds heavier than I am now. Half the pictures in my portfolio depict me at being much heavier than I am now. And yet, I had never in my entire career been told to lose weight.
Not because I think I’m thin or perfect, but because I tend to aim for jobs that are made for someone who looks like me, because I don’t have any illusions about where I fit in the scheme of things.
kd Lang is the only woman who makes me feel the way I do when I’m attracted to a man.
From youth to old age, she just gets sexier, like a man. She reminds me of the castrati that used to rule Italy in the seventeenth century. She seems like a man, but that voice, is one of the most incredible voices ever recorded.
I think the word is compelling. You just can’t look away, can’t stop trying to figure out what it is exactly that you’re looking at.
I made a one day turn around trip to Los Angeles yesterday to shoot with Corporate Vampire, photographer Alejandra Guerrero. She’s a lot of fun. She deals in fetish images mainly, latex and tailored suits. She scored a location in the Hollywood Hills with an undisturbed view of the Hollywood sign.
I strapped on a corset and some stilettos, slicked back my hair and donned some red lipstick for the lady.
I think the strangest nude of me ever was captured by my webcam rather unwittingly while I was making my bed up for the show. I look like a weird mannequin.
Before hair and makeup, making up the bed.
After makeup, still in hair.
My first feature, My Sister Celine just came out. It was cool seeing press releases for it on AVN next to a huge blinking AEBN banner with a huge picture of me on it. My life is very surreal right now if you know me and where I come from. Which you can’t and don’t. But this feels real, right?
You can read a write up of my movie by porn scholar Anna B. Volk here: http://darlinghouse.net/beta/annabvolk.
I also have a scene with Skin Diamond that came out today on AEBN for our movie Lesbian Masseuse. You should definitely check that shiz out.
