i couldn’t sleep. i thought about the bodega that makes great breakfast sandwiches and i thought about the first apartment i ever had and when my parents came to visit on Puerto Rican Independence day there was a cop car set on fire blazing away two doors down from my apartment. i watch five episodes of SVU and masturbate three times with my pink Rabbit and then inhale and exhale to ten each way until i reach one hundred and forty and it was finally the sound of my fan that lulls me to sleep it sounds like waves like the tides changing and it took me back to the ocean to the shore and all of the relaxing memories i have of it. i wake up thinking about shoes at Barneys and Sarah comes over and has me stretch and downward dog and star and we discuss yoga arms and today i went into a trance quite literally the hypnotist was a very sexy Eastern European woman in shiny black high heels with red toenails peeping through and a modest yet tight a line black dress and flips her hair often. her wedding band had a very large rock attached to it and i knew that her accent would be nice and soothing and as she discusses my smoking habit i imagine her unzipping that dress from the back and peeling it off and down around her ankles and i stand in front of her and we rub our bodies together and flick and entwine our tongues and she tells me to lay on the couch and she starts to sing speak and my mind starts going to many places none of which i can remember but vivid not disturbing thoughts and then my hearing jumps out of my brain and pulls back to her voice and then i hear her tell me to lift one finger in three two one and my hand pops up with one erect forefinger pointing upwards. it is the strangest thing and i feel so relaxed and there is no tension in me like anywhere and later after the Ava Taurel documentary as i talk with Jan and friends i have a cigarette but it tastes different it tastes like harm.
we come upon an XXX movie theatre and ask what is playing. two of his front teeth are missing and tells us i forget the names but one is about drunk lesbian sorority girls and the next is all about latina women getting fucked up their bubble asses and the next is focused on huge tits and i completely forget the last one it is afternoon and the theatre smells like urine but i don’t care and it is so dark i can’t see the seats or the floor and we choose the back row and i use my phone light to check for cum or roaches around me and it doesn’t look too bad and the first seat i sit on is broken so we move to the left a bit and our eyes start to adjust and i look around and see a bald head three rows in front of us and then in the front someone has either lit a cigarette or a joint hard to say and big titty porn is playing a door to door salesman is invited into her house and soon she is licking her own nipples as he sucks on her pussy like its a fucking popsicle and soon i’m sucking on his popsicle but the armrest is in the way and is pressing into my chest so i sit up again and watch the screen and then i sit on his lap but first pull my stretch pants and panties down and he slides his cock slowly inside of me and i brace myself with neighboring seats and he brings his fingers under and around my thigh and rubs a circle onto my clit and the whole thing is such a turn on and i watch the screen as a man fucks a woman doggie style while she licks on a wet swollen clit and i turn my head and watch the man who was smoking getting a blow job in the corner from a figure with a backpack on and then i turn back and look at him and cum. hard. and then i start to smell McDonalds.
smoking cigarettes again i keep holding onto her words, that it may take a couple of weeks to kick in. i wonder. i kill time by playing with my fingers in front of a mirror holding them upright and intertwining them and here is the church and here is steeple open the door and there are the people and tonight at the party we talked about what fetish “flushing” would be it started as human ashtray and went to cream pies and i found out that i am left nippled and Tex sipped her mike’s hard lemonade and laughed.