Male sexuality is a varied and wondrous thing. I wanted to shoot with Collin J. Rae for a long time because I like the highcontrast and bright colors in his work, and also the vague sense of menace. I’d never shot with a foot fetish photographer before, and I really didn’t know what to expect, if he would be “weird” or not. He was in Manhattan for a few days doing some business, he works in Nashville doing something related to music. He was strange, but in a delightful way, unapologetic in his fetish and covered in tattoos of various friends signatures.
We talked about various models he knew that I was familiar with. The modeling world of nude/fetish/erotica is actually quite small. The same girls traveling across the country meeting men with cameras and various obsessions paying us by the hour to reveal the most intimate parts of ourselves.
Collin said I had a perfect mouth, even though he wasn’t really into lips. He’s the first photographer I let touch me during a shoot. It’s part of his style to have a sort of POV feel, him touching your feet etc. He also touched my lips though, and put his thumb in my mouth. I knew it was probably one of the last independent shoots like that I would do…a month later I was in LA making my first adult movie. I thought it was a nice way to finish that chapter of my life.
Those two years in NYC changed me more than any other thing I’ve done. At some point I will have to sit down and collect all of those stories.